I Don't Know What To Do :/?

ok i can understand that you had a bad relationship and that you don't wont it to be the same way again will the best thing i can tell you is that you need to tell him how you feel about the hole thing so that way he will understand how you feel ok. now the next thing you have show him that you have this feeling that thing are not going to change and that you wont thing's to be different and that you can't let thing's get out of hand no more and that you need some kind of self-conscience in knowing that you can go and do what you need to do in your life and that he needs to understand that right off the start and if he can't get that then he dose not need you at all. now that's my advice to you. your friend Fred